Lent Day 4: Walking in the Light

 

Jesus said to them, "The light is with you a little longer. Walk while you have the light, so that the darkness may not overtake you. If you walk in the darkness, you do not know where you are going."
~John 12:35

Jesus is speaking to a group of "Greeks," which indicates Gentiles. This takes place just after Jesus has ridden into Jerusalem on what we know as Palm Sunday. Jesus has predicted his death, and is being asked, Who is the Messiah? Who is the Son of Man? Essentially, he is being asked who he is.  When Jesus tells the people around him that "the light" will be with them just a little while longer, he is speaking about himself. Jesus is the light of the world, and he knows that his death is imminent.

Like anyone faced with the immediacy of their own mortality, Jesus' soul is troubled. He asks aloud the question.. should I ask God to save me? But no. Here, as in every gospel, Jesus knows where he is being called, and he will walk that path. But he also wants the people around him to walk the path he believes God has chosen for them--the path of the light, the path that the early church called "the Way."

The Way of Jesus is described in the Acts of the Apostles as a time of great love and care shared by the fledgling faith community:

Awe came upon everyone because many wonders and signs were being done through the apostles. All who believed were together, and had everything in common; they would sell their possessions and goods, and distribute the proceeds to all, as any had need. Day by day, as they spent much time together in the temple, they broke bread at home, and ate their food with glad and generous hearts, praising God and having the goodwill of all the people. And day by day the Lord added to their number those who were being saved.
~Acts 2:43-47

This is what the early church understood as "walking in the light," or in the Way of Jesus. When I read this passage, I think of the forces of light and darkness that are always around us, but which seem to be especially visible to us in these chaotic times. What does it mean to walk in the light in these days? The early church offers us a blueprint of deliberate and generous-hearted care of one another, and of our neighbors (whether or not they are a part of" our" community). A wise woman said this week that, in these days of chaos, we must double down on love. 

...We’re living in a moment that has a very apocalyptic fragility to it, meaning that we can see the limits and how very delicate our structures are... But I will say one of the weird gifts of feeling apocalyptic fragility is, and we see this all throughout Scripture, is that heightened awareness. We have to... create practices that try to restore our own peace, to try to bring our neurological alert systems down, to remind ourselves of God’s abiding love, and really, the strength of the way that we can love each other back into a web that can reweave our own lives and our culture. I really do believe that. But the other thing is moments where we feel apocalyptic, you know, fragility.. it's the feeling of seeing things. And there’s some things that we should see. We should see injustice. We should see how much we are required to be a part of a world that needs us. We should see our own interdependence. So sometimes that revelation feels pretty awful. But other times I think it can make us really like sane. Like deeply sane. Because we can know what’s true, that our world is fragile. We can give ourselves more grace to restore our own peace, and that we just kind of double down on the stuff that really matters. Like being concretely loving, concretely honest... double down on the stuff that actually makes us good people of faith...*

Walking in the light means doubling down on love--loving the people who are in our circles, our community, and even who are not. Being there for folks as they lose their jobs, or lose their faith in the structures and systems that seems to be crumbling before our eyes. Being there for folks who have gotten a terrible diagnosis, or who face huge, unanticipated life transitions. Being there for those who might be lonely, or feel forgotten, neglected. 

What does it mean to you, for you, today, to walk in the light?

Blessings to you this weekend. Don't forget to set your clocks ahead! Let's walk in the light together.

* Kate Bowler, PhD, “The Hardest Part: Lent for Real Life,” Everything Happens Podcast, Season 14, Episode 3, March 4, 2025.

Lent Day 33: Where do you find joy? Part 2: Entertainment

I really do love the PCUSA Daily Prayerbook. Members of committees and boards in the congregation I serve are used to me waving the book at them prior to reading a prayer to kick off or close a meeting. One of the things I particularly love about it is the way the days of the week are themed. For example, Thursday prayers mention the ministry of Word and Sacrament, the affection of our friends, and our call to love and care for one another... all things that connect with Maundy Thursday, a day (night) on which friends gathered around a table, a Sacrament was instituted, and Jesus exemplified love and caring as he washed his disciples' feet.

The themes of Saturday are related to weekend-things... ministries of music and the arts, time for rest and recreation, but also the burden of addiction (which so often becomes more visible in weekend activities). 

The prayers begin with expressions of gratitude. One of these is "those who enlighten and entertain."

I come from a family of artists and entertainers. Both my adult children have pursued careers in theater in various ways; their dad works with symphony orchestras. My partner helps people to adorn their homes with the art and photographs they love. Even I tried my hand (ever so briefly) at singing professionally when I was in my twenties. All of us place value on the arts and entertainment--not in the abstract, but in the specific ways artists, actors, musicians hold a mirror up to life--the good, the bad, and the ugly-- and show us our humanity, or lack thereof. My children and I love to experience a play or movie or TV show together, and then talk about it at length, in detail, analyzing the choices directors and actors make, sharing our excitement at the things that really pop for us, shaking our heads sadly at near misses.

So, I love all these things. And seeing them, taking them in, and then pulling them apart with those who experience them with me, is a real joy. 

Last night a friend and I shared dinner and then saw a great local production of "Jesus Christ Superstar," a play I have loved since my mom bought me the concept album when I was eleven. I was a Catholic schoolkid who was pretty into the rosary and Mary and wanted to be a nun now and then, so, suffice to say, this music / musical was a kind of emotional and spiritual explosion. I had never heard anybody talk about Jesus like Judas (who, let's admit, is the star of the show, title notwithstanding. It is his journey that we are following with rapt attention, and that makes sense. He stands in for us, in many ways.) 

The first words of the opening song are, "My mind is clearer now." 

And you know what? Because of the brilliance of Andrew Lloyd Weber and Tim Rice, my mind was clearer, in the sense that I got to witness a struggle with doubt (Judas') that had been presented to me one-dimensionally. I got to witness Jesus with all his humanity on view (which, let's be frank, isn't typically well-presented, no matter what our theology tells us about fully God/ fully human. I am happy to report that last night's Judas knocked it out of the park.). I got to witness various disciples and their points of view and political sympathies and limitations. No matter what you think of how Rice and Weber use the gospel of John (which is their main source), the presentation of the Jesus story here is a revelation. That revelation is: There is more than one way to look at this. Even if the rock opera doesn't move the needle on your theology one point, anyone who allows themselves to take this in is enriched by the beauty of someone taking a story and telling it through music and song.

All this is my reaction to the album. Imagine what happened to me when I saw the movie.

Here's what happened. My favorite song went from "I Don't Know How to Love Him" (which, today, isn't even one of my top five favorite songs from the show) to "Gethsemane (I Only Want to Say)." Why? because of Norman Jewison's brilliant direction which has Jesus climbing the Mount of Olives while he is singing to God, begging God to let him live.

I only want to say
if there is a way
take this cup away from me,
'cause I don't want to taste its poison,
feel it burn me.
I have changed.
I'm not as sure
as when we started...

This passage of scripture is generally called "the agony in the garden." Interestingly, this is one place where Rice / Weber depart significantly from John's gospel--Jesus is in agony in Matthew, Mark, and Luke. In the gospel of John, he is not only resolved, but eerily eager to go to his death, which he calls his "glory."

Not here. Here, Rice / Weber embrace Jesus' humanity and fear (and the three synoptic tellings of this moment), and the climb is the embodiment of that. He is trying to reach out to God, climbing toward the invisible and, in this moment, silent Deity. He climbs higher and higher, his distress increasing with the altitude. At the apex of both his climb and the music ("Alright! I'll die!") the camera leaves the actor, Ted Neeley, and we see, instead, images of paintings of the crucifixion, as the time signature of the music jolts from 4/4 into 5/4, a rhythm that the listener feels in their body because, in that moment, it's so unexpected and off-balance. It heightens the horror. God either doesn't hear or won't respond.

I've never heard that song in the same way again. Now it slays me emotionally, all because a director and an actor and a production designer used the music and lyrics in a brilliant way to show us what agony looks like. It is imprinted on my soul.

This. Gives. Me. Joy. A well-made film or TV show, a well-produced play engages the senses, awakens the critical faculties, pierces the emotions, captures the viewer /listener, and gives them an experience they can't shake (and often, don't want to).

Here. You'll see what I mean. Entertainment like this gives me joy. What entertainment is flooding you with endorphins today?

 

Lent Day 28: The Women Who Anointed Jesus Part 3

Jesus' anointing in the Gospel According to John has much in common with the versions found in Matthew and Mark:

• The Bethany location (though, it is the home of Martha, Mary, and their brother Lazarus; and not Simon the leper).
• The presence of costly ointment/ nard.
• The "J'accuse!" moment with Judas over the waste of something so costly, and the appeal to Jesus' preferential option for the poor. 

It also has one key element in common with Luke's version: the anointing of Jesus' feet (rather than his head, as in Matthew and Mark).

But the details of the fourth gospel's presentation stand out as incredibly important in the story.

1. This is not an anonymous woman. She has a name: Mary. (Given... so many Marys.) This is a family with whom Jesus has a prior connection, one revealed in chapter 11:

Now a certain man was ill, Lazarus of Bethany, the village of Mary and her sister Martha. Mary was the one who anointed the Lord with perfume and wiped his feet with her hair; her brother Lazarus was ill. So the sisters sent a message to Jesus, “Lord, he whom you love is ill.” (John 11:1-3)

Jesus loves at least one member of this family, and the assumption that he will hurry to his bedside is clear. There is a prior intimacy here.

2. Jesus and this family also have a recent shared history of death and loss, and resuscitation/ resurrection. Lazarus, the one whom Jesus loves, has died--shock. And he has been brought back to life--shock again. And in the midst of it all Jesus has had a key conversation with his sister Martha. She has expressed her anger/ disappointment that Jesus did not show up in time (as does Mary, in another conversation). But Martha has also affirmed not only one of the powerful "I AM" statements that are unique to John's gospel, but also Jesus' identity/ role as Messiah/ Christ/ Anointed of God:

When Martha heard that Jesus was coming, she went and met him, while Mary stayed at home. Martha said to Jesus, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But even now I know that God will give you whatever you ask of him.” Jesus said to her, “Your brother will rise again.” Martha said to him, “I know that he will rise again in the resurrection on the last day.” Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Those who believe in me, even though they die, will live, and everyone who lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?” She said to him, “Yes, Lord, I believe that you are the Messiah, the Son of God, the one coming into the world.” (John 11:20-27)

3. Points 1 and 2 are background from the previous chapter. In chapter, 12, Mary (who also had a heartbroken conversation with Jesus) comes into the room where they are eating, at a party the family has thrown in Jesus' honor, with the once dead but now alive Lazarus seated at the table as well. Into the room she brings nard. Matthew and Mark note the nard and its expense. John notes the amount of nard--a pound, an extravagant amount, shockingly so.

Nard is expensive, as the text points out. And it is used to prepare bodies for burial. In the previous chapter the smell of death is discussed. When Jesus orders that the stone be rolled away from the tomb, Martha objects. "There will be a stench..." (Or, in the KJV: "By this time he stinketh.") But Lazarus comes out alive, and no stench is described. 

Now, Mary pours out the nard on Jesus' feet, and we have a different, beautiful smell of death that would be well-known to the community; the smell of nard, sweet, pungent, filling the entire house, unmistakable.*

In chapter 11, Martha affirmed Jesus as the Resurrection and the Life, the Christ who has come into the world.

In chapter 12, Mary affirms that Jesus will die. More than that, she affirms his worthiness. She has shown devotion in a way that shocks at least some who are present, but which is entirely appropriate. She is a true disciple.

Gill, Eric, 1882-1940. Mary Magdalen, from Art in the Christian Tradition, a project of the Vanderbilt Divinity Library, Nashville, TN. https://diglib.library.vanderbilt.edu/act-imagelink.pl?RC=58991 [retrieved April 2, 2022]. Original source: https://www.flickr.com/photos/carolyn_gifford/32946639684/.

Note: Mary Magdalene and Mary of Bethany
have often been blurred and conflated throughout the centuries.
It is Mary of Bethany who anointed Jesus in the gospel of John.

* Thank you to Rev. Ruth Hetland for this insight, as found in her "Full to the Brim" Bible Study.